Dear Mr. Fear,
I write to you today to let you that your hold over my life is over. I don’t hate you because in a way there are times when you actually pushed me to excel, especially in my career as a writer. And there is one aspect of you that still remains with me, which is my fear of the creator of my soul. I am in awe of Him, I love and respect Him, so you see, that is the only part of you that I can say I allow in my life.
Now, Mr. Fear, do you remember you almost killed me two years ago? That bright winter morning when I believed most of your lies that my heart would give way, even with new life growing inside me, you told me I would not hold my son in my arms and my heart was panting with the images of your lies which was deeply entrenched in my soul, till this day, it still baffles me when I allowed you in, I didn’t know when you crept in and almost crippled my faith. But you lost because I am alive!
I am here today by the grace of God, and my son has a mother standing by him, holding him and wiping tears away from his eyes when he is crying. My children have a mother they can see and touch, not the one who is in the grave.
I thank the lover of my soul who showed himself strong on my behalf. I am worthy, I am valuable and I mean a lot to my friends and family.
I guess there is nothing more to say… Actually there is, maybe someone is reading this open letter and is plague by fear. Just shake it off… Fear is a coward, it would flee!
Good bye Mr. Fear,
Seyi Sandra David.
Back to my NaNoWrimo novel…
I agree; doing transcendental meditation did wonders for me on riding of those lingering negative emotions inside me:))
Thanks for your comment Jon, I was pregnant then and believed I wouldn’t survive it. Thinking back now it was hilarious, but I went through hell. I can’t really say when it stopped but it did, life can toss anything at us, it’s up to us to fight for our happiness.
Being pregnant makes this post even more moving. Beautiful letter 🙂
Thanks for your comment Abby.
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