Infinity…

 

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“All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.”
― Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet In Heaven.

”My life flashed before my eyes.

I saw heaven and hell passed beneath my feet, I almost slipped on mould and blood.

My hatred flashed venoms at me, I gazed at hopes I thought gone, my blood boiled.

I bath with forgiveness and left bitterness behind.

I glided towards the void as life met my weakness.

Horrors assailed my sins and I bowed in pain.

What is my hope? When shall I see your face again?

Your cute rosy cheeks burned my skin and I flinched

as blood rushed to my cheeks.

I love you my angel…

But I know your end is only the beginning.

I’m determined to see you again, someday!”

******

Life is short… I always say that but I’ll take my words back today. Life is endless, it’s infinity and what we do really echoes through eternity. I tried to summarise my emotions into this poem, and you really have to be my friend, to really care and understand what I’m  trying to say.  A part of me passed away yesterday, a part I’ve never even met… a baby. My sister’s baby. I tried to hold it in but I couldn’t anymore. Believe me, I fought so hard and though I didn’t get to meet him and hold him in my arms, I felt him in my spirit.

His breath passed my face in my dreams.

“Holding anger is a poison…It eats you from inside…We think that by hating someone we hurt them…But hatred is a curved blade…and the harm we do to others…we also do to ourselves.”   ―     Mitch Albom  

I love Mitch’s words because I was angry at the circumstances surrounding my sister’s baby but that’s life… And as much as I hate to write this post, I had to. But this year  has been good, and I’m still grateful for what God has enabled me to achieve.

I would still write another post before the end of this year, and if you’d endured my ramblings thus far, thanks for stopping by!

Much love, always!

42 comments on “Infinity…

  1. Bryan says:

    Amen! Holding on to anger will destroy us; however, it is not always easy to let go of.

  2. This must be therapeutic for you! Very inspirational…

  3. Mitch Albom is very insightful. Your poem if full of passion. Your complete post sums up the emotions we face through life. I’m sorry for the pain and lost your family has to face. Blessings and hugs.

    • Seyi sandra says:

      Thanks for your kind words, it brought so much comfort to me. Life is unpredictable, I never thought this would happen but it did.

      I wish the rest of this year would give you joy my friend. Thanks for your friendship!
      Much love.

  4. Subhan Zein says:

    An insightful and passionate poem. Thank you for sharing, Seyi. Blessings and love to you ♥

  5. Al says:

    I am sorry for the loss you and your sister must feel. Losing a baby weather it has been born or not is always hard.

    Thank you for sharing this wonderful poem with us about it.

    • Seyi sandra says:

      Thanks for your kind words Al, I didn’t think this would happen but it did. My sister would have another child by God’s grace but it was the circumstances surrounding the whole thing that made me angry.

      Writing the post lessen my anger and with the realisation that there’s life after death made me hopeful.

      I appreciate your visit Al!
      Blessings.

      • Al says:

        Lessening anger is a good thing. Anger will eventually turn in on it’s wielder destroying that person. So it I am glad you have managed to disperse it – although I doubt it will ever go completely.

        There is life after death. There is so much more.

      • Seyi sandra says:

        Thanks Al, I know there is, that was my only redeeming grace. This year has been great and hard at the same time. Losing people close to you opened your eyes to see your mortality but at the same time, it brought a point home…

        Which is my faith. I should be the strong one for my sister hence my decision to write the poem and the post.

        Enough said, I hope you’re good… My love to your lovely kids. I’ll pop over to yours before the night is over. I’m grateful for your friendship Al.
        Much love.

      • Al says:

        You may not want to read my story. It is to do with child abduction.

      • Seyi sandra says:

        I’ll read it Al, loves reading everything you write!

      • Al says:

        Thank you Seyi🙂

  6. Beautiful poem Seyi and please do ramble on!🙂

    I like the way Mitch reasons, he always manages to make it seem so effortless, and it is come to think of it.
    Sorry for your loss dear, but you do know your nephew is not lost. In his going away, you were able to reach places you would not naturally want to visit, but in the visit you find strength and see life hope, rather than grief. Yes, life is limitless,not even death can limit it.

    • Seyi sandra says:

      Yes Dotta, death can’t even diminish life, I clearly see that and your comment further brought it to the fore, for that, I thank you.

      I hope the rest of this year would be pleasant and peaceful to you and all that is yours! I’m grateful for your visit!
      Blessings.

  7. JC says:

    Condolences to you and your family my beautiful friend….

    I am thankful that you have the gift of words that seem to be your therapy in this moment.

    Blessings always
    JC

    • Seyi sandra says:

      Thanks for your kindness dear friend. I find consolation in the fact that my sister lives and we would see my nephew again.

      I appreciate your visit and I wish you a great year ahead!
      Blessings.

  8. Makeda says:

    This was a beautiful poem. Thank you for sharing your ache with us. I am so sorry for your and your sister’s loss. Sending you hugs and prayers today.

  9. RoSy says:

    Sorry to hear about your sister’s little angel.
    God be with you & your family.
    {Hugs}

  10. ledrakenoir says:

    Thanks, insightful and passionate written… “hugs”

  11. Jack says:

    I am praying for you and your family, Seyi.

  12. frizztext says:

    “All endings
    are also beginnings.”
    congrats Sandra,
    the perfect quote f
    or this week!

  13. Life is truly a mystery, and never more so than when we are faced with the loss of innocent human life. There’s a rage that builds up inside us, and we need to express it, exorcise it somehow. Sometimes that means raging at God (I believe He fully understands this), working thru our grief, holding fast to our faith, and trusting that all will come right in the end.

    I’m sorry for your loss, Seyi, and I shall keep you and your sister in my prayers.

  14. Ste J says:

    It is not a case of enduring your words, we find them wondrous. I to like Five People and its message. You have my thoughts at this and every other difficult time you and yours encounter.

  15. Hi hon. I just wanted to wish you a very happy and prosperous New Year. I am truly glad to met you this past year. You are a jewel! ♥

    Much love,

    Valerie

  16. snowgood says:

    Seyi,

    It’s ages since I read “the Five People you meet in Heaven”.
    I don’t recall it being that wonderful, but if it got folk to think about eternity I guess it fulfilled its’ purpose.

    Keep up the good work, I appreciate your thoughts on these last few posts.

    Stephen

  17. WordsFallFromMyEyes says:

    Very visual, wonderful writing, Seyisandra.

    Anger is indeed a poison. I’ve seen it in my family, eating them inside out.

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